I realise for the most part

I write hateful and depressing shit on here or stuff that doesn't really matter. So here's one for the most important person in my life in the hopes it'll make it clear I'm not a miserable hater all the time. Without wishing to sound self-pitying or cliched, cause being walked over is part of growing up, prior to Liam I had basically been treated like shit in varying different ways and degrees. I had little hope of ever meeting someone who 'gets' me and wanted me to be happy cause they care about my well being not because I'm more fun to be around when I'm happy and that makes their life easier. I certainly didn't think I'd meet someone I could imagine sharing my life with until I was middle aged, if ever. But Liam is everything I was never expecting and now cannot do without. Its definitely not 'cool' to be in love and most people would probably think I'm the most naive person in the world for thinking at the age of 20 I have met the person I will love the most in my whole life but I say FUCK THEM they have no idea what goes on behind closed doors. It's been a really difficult year for both of us, for different reasons and most relationships would probably crack under the pressure, but we haven't, I feel closer to him now than I ever have before. Whilst some of its been bad I wouldn't erase it because now I know I'm not being immature in thinking we can survive anything because it hasn't always been blue skies and plain sailing and we're still here and still together.
He tells me I look great with make up on, he tells me the same when I have none on and never tells me I wear too much or tries to make me look like or be anyone other than the person I am. He doesn't care if I gain or lose weight. He tolerates my moods when he has every right in the world to walk away. He knows all my secrets, even the really bad ones and still loves me. He's always got my back and I've got his. Sometimes I get scared that we are too young and that time or growing up will mean we eventually disappoint one another but then I'm reminded of all the amazing things we have to look forward to and experience together and I'm not scared anymore. He makes me want to be a better person but never judges me if I'm not capable of it. He has taught me about the kind of person I want to be and the sort of life I want to live. He really is the greatest man I've ever known, right up there with my Dad and all the words in the world would never do justice to my love for him




Just imagine it's the "Woman in me" instead....